i’m so sorry for everything. truly. i understand that you never want to talk to me again, that you never want to see me again, that you never want to hear my name again. trust me, I think I hate myself more than you hate me for everything. i think that i see myself in you so much and that’s what scares me and why im so quick to call you out on every little thing you do wrong. I also think I do that because the version of you that was so innocent, so loving, so pure, is stuck in my head and i know that you’re able to be like that again. i think i called you a monster and said you were a shitty person not because you are one, just because I simply can’t accept that you just don’t love me and didn’t love me enough to not treat me like that. I’m so fucking scared that we will never talk again, that I will never see you laugh again, that I won’t ever be the reason for your smiles. I truly did love you, so much, with so much innocence and passion. A part of me will always love you and i’ve come to terms with that because when you loved me too, it was the best feeling I had ever felt and I would give anything to get it back I know i’m not the one you want and never will be again, but I won’t stop praying that one day, you’ll come back Maybe that day I will be able to tell you that I don’t want you anymore. Again, i’m so sorry not being selfish and for ruining your life.