sweetheart. i can’t shake the feeling that everything happened when you were at your most vulnerable. you were struggling, you were overwhelmed, and you weren’t sure what you wanted, and suddenly you were back in a situation with someone you already had so much awful history with. maybe i’m wrong about some things, and i know i can’t know everything that’s going on between you two. but i worry that being in such a dark place influenced a decision that you might have made differently if you’d had more time. i can’t help feeling like she’s come back into your life at a time when you’re especially vulnerable, and that worries me more than i can explain. i remember what you’ve told me about your history together, and i know your friends have their own concerns, too. i’m scared that you’re going to get hurt again while you’re already struggling. i don’t want to see you back in that dark place. i don’t want to see you in a hospital room. i wish i could make you understand that my concern comes from caring about you, not wanting to control you. i wanted to give you room to breathe because i cared more about you feeling better than getting an immediate answer about us. i didn’t want you to feel trapped or pressured into anything. i just wish that, somewhere in all of this, there had been room for us to talk honestly about what we meant to each other. i still wish we’d had that chance. and i can’t help but feel like she rushed into this with you to take advantage of the fact that you were hurting and scared. and keeping you scared so you’ll stay with her. and that isn’t right. please give yourself time to think. still yours, mae.