angel, this loss hurts so deeply because you didn’t just make me fall /you/. you helped me fall in love with my life again too. i started looking forward to things, making plans, getting excited about the future. i felt like there was so much waiting for me when you were around, and i wanted to be here for all of it. i know it wasn’t something only i noticed, either. people told me they could see the difference in me, in /us/, in how happy we made each other... that’s why it hurts so much to look back now. i miss you, of course i do. i always do… but i also miss the girl i was becoming when you were in my life. i hope i find my way back to her someday. i'm still trying to understand how something that made me so unbelievably happy could leave me feeling so lost. i’ll figure it out one day. —mae.