Happy father's day dad, I am deeply sorry I can't seem to call or even have the courage to talk to you. part of me can't seem to allow me to approach you. Maybe is because of everything you had done to me, I don't mean any disrespect but I am truly hurt and every time I try to tell you, part of me says its pointless trying to tell you because you will never listen, therefore you will never understand you never did and never will. I swear I am trying to call you I am trying my best to reach out but I don't know why I can't. I am not sure if it is fear or hatred all I can say is that I am not ready to talk. But i do love you dad, I always did and always did and always will. I hope your proud of me.