I have realised how much you would weaponise therapy talk to try and justify your behaviour. ‘I’m just protecting my peace’ is really ‘I’m avoiding accountability for how abusive I was’… Your relentless talk and misuse of ‘boundaries’ when you were really trying to assert control over other peoples behaviour so you could feel powerful. Genuinely decent people do not get a sick sense of power from denying to end a relationship in a mature, calm way once time has passed. What I’m learning now is that my brain has had me thinking I interpreted you wrong, that I must be bad so I deserved this, that I must still love you because of the intrusive thoughts, that you must be the one because if not, why would you still enter my mind so much… It’s a lie. It’s all a lie. I do not miss you. I do not love you. I’m done analysing you. Maybe you are a narcissist, maybe you’re not. Oh well. It’s not my problem. You are not my problem. How could I ever respect someone that throws a tantrum and plays the ‘I’m not speaking to you’ game as if we are not both grown adults. No you don’t have to speak to me, but the point is that your intentions were crystal clear to cause suffering. However you try to pain it up with your therapy talk, it was abuse. And I refuse it. Fuck you and fuck OCD.