Dear J, if you ever stumble upon this message. I'm so embarrassed about our first ever encounter, I hope we can start again. I know you know I had a crush on you. It's back now, ever since l learned you and her broke up. And that's honestly such an a-hole move, but I just can't stop these feelings like I did last time. Probably 'cause I forced myself not to like you because you liked my friend and then after that you liked my other friend. You probably think of me as a weirdo, I hope I can change that. Moving on, I can't help but want you to be mine. It's a feeling that I can't deny, I wanted to at first 'cause obviously girl code. BUT even if I miraculously stopped myself from liking you, I'm not even your type. I wish things turned out differently; wish I became your girl; wish I was your type. But I'm not. But this is the first time I've felt honest feelings about a guy that wasn't just because I wanted to feel something. I like you alot. Like so MUCH that it's practically driving me insane. Every waking thought I have is about you. I hope we keep talking. I hope we connect. I hope you like me. I hope we end up together. I'm sorry if you ever find this, J, I know I'm weird.