Im sorry. We have been with eachother since we I was 13 and you were 14, Now you are about to be 18 and me 17. When I first met you I never had a boyfriend before and you were going through a hard breakup from a toxic ex. I used to be innocent and so in love. I wanted to help you, and show you Im not like the girls that broke your heart, and I knew it would be hard with you. Your last relationship made things hard for you, bigger trust problems, and you just not beign fully there for me. We were young but I was so desperatley in love with you. As time went by you cheated on me a couple weeks in, I couldnt understand how you can cheat on me. All I did was show you my love and stick with you through the hardest times. I took you back. As time went by my feelings and emotions relied on you. Like i was obsessed with you. And I as. Youd always threaten to leave me on little things like if i fell asleep on you. Every time we fought or id think youd leave me i would freak out so bad. Until one day I had a full blown panic attack after you blocked me and told me mean such mean names and said youd never be with me again. That night my parents fund out what was really going on in our relationship. Instead of them listening to me, they took my phone and banned me from you. I grew desperate and snuk around to see you, we broke up pubicly in may and never got back together in fear of my parents finding out. But we were still dating eachother. I snuck out to see you, and got caught. That was the worst trouble ive ever gotten in. Finally I get my phone back after we havent had contact in a good while. I told you i coudlt be with you because I was afraid to be in that kinda of trouble again instead on listening to myself and my own feelings. I ended up adding you back and winning you over again which im happy you came back. But things ere hard for me, after so long i started to dee you change for the better just for me. You started treating me so good. I met this other guy. He did the same sport of me but i never notcued him before, he added me on snap and honestly my parents kinda introduced me to him. Before i could even see who this guy really was, hed buy me flowers, and i barely knew him. He bought me whatever i wanted and seemed intrest and care for me. I was still talking to my baby. I was cheating on him. I felt pressured from all the gifts hed buy and my parents on my shoulders, i lost privaleges after sneaking out, but when i met the new guy my parents gave me my trust back because they thought there waso way i could still love you. I treated the new guy like shit. I never hung out or texted him. Eventully you found out, and i never felt more regret and fear of losing you. I ruined us. My selfiness ruined us. As soon as you started to change i ruined us. And for that i will forever be sorry baby.