Hi, Carlee. I hope you read this, but it’s up to you if you want to. I just want to be really honest with you. This has been bothering me for a while, and I didn’t expect it either. I like you, crush kita, I have feelings for you, however you want to interpret it. I’m not even sure how to feel right now, but I know I needed to express this. Ang weird noh? I really never expected to fall for you or even catch feelings, but it was through our interactions, like when we go out coop, practice, SM, chikahan, and even the times we tease each other. Slowly, my feelings started to develop. Nagulat talaga ako sa sarili ko when they became real, because at first I was brushing it off and not thinking about it since you’re my best friend. Then suddenly boom. I really never expected it. I know to myself this might be hard again, because I didn’t think I’d fall for someone again, but then you came along. I also find myself wondering if you might like me back. Delusion is real, but assuming and mixed signals aren’t. Sometimes I feel like you might like me a little or maybe not and you’re just being friendly. Or maybe I’m just overthinking. Ang OA talaga. I mean, I think you already know this about me, but I tend to notice everything, so I end up overanalyzing. Like that one time after class when we went back to the room to get a ball for volleyball, and we didn’t find one, so we just watched Mamma Mia practice. I remember asking who could be a crush, and you suddenly said “ako,” then quickly said another name. I know I responded, but honestly, inside I was shook. There are more moments like that. I’ve also noticed that sometimes you get a bit cold towards me, especially when they mention “R,” like during KB’s birthday or in the classroom but maybe I’m just overthinking again or reading things wrong. I was trying na iwala tong feelings na to just for our friendship, but every time I try, it just doesn't. But then suddenly it happened, I was losing feelings for you, then suddenly it started to come back, and I don’t know what the reason was. If naalala mo pa yung mga sinesend ko sayo sa TikTok, mga notes ko sa IG, or parinig, that was all for you. It was all because I wanted you to know that I liked you or mahalata mo. I know that mabilis ka makahalata, as in, and right now, as I’m writing this, I think you know that I like you, or if not, I’m surprised. I did all that when I lost feelings for you in some way, hoping you could confront me about it or just simply ask kung sino yun, para matapos na. but yeah wala, I was dumb for doing that. But now it’s all coming back, and I don’t know the reason. I’m sharing all of this because I want to be truthful with you. I really don’t want to assume anything, because I know I could be wrong. I’m not asking for reassurance, but if ever you do want to clarify things, I would appreciate it so I could stop feeding my delusions That’s it. I just hope that after you read this, we can still continue as friends and that nothing changes between us. I’m really grateful for you, and I value our friendship a lot. I never thought I’d have a friend like you. Falling and confessing was definitely not on my list this year.