hi love, if this message ever reaches you one day, please don’t reach out to me anymore ya. maybe by then i’ve already moved on, or maybe a part of me never really did. i honestly don’t know. i just wanted to leave this here while i’m still grieving us, and grieving the version of you i fell in love with. even if you were faking it all along, thank you for making me feel loved for those two months. i was genuinely happy, even happier than i’ve ever been in a very long time. and i think that’s why this hurts so much. congrats for getting your love back ya. i sincerely hope she makes you happy in all the ways you’ve always wanted. but i can’t stay by your side as your “friend” and quietly watch you love someone else while pretending my heart isn’t breaking. i can’t sit there and slowly disappear in front of someone i would’ve given everything to. i think the saddest part is realizing i was loving you truthfully while you were already choosing someone else in your heart. while i am still holding onto every late night call, every soft word, every reassurance, every “stay”, every “i miss you”, every "i love you", you were slowly slipping away without me even noticing. i was treating us like something real while you were already halfway out the door. you made me feel so loved that i forgot people can fake warmth too. but somehow, despite everything, i still can’t hate you because for a little while, you became my safe place when my world felt heavy and my home in this unfamiliar city. and maybe that’s why losing you feels unbearable. not because we lasted for a short time, or because we had no label, but because i truly believed you meant it when you said you wanted me, that you loved me. i really thought you were different. i really thought maybe, after everything i’ve been through, you were finally the person meant for me. i really thought you were my answered prayer. and maybe one day, when you think about me, it’ll finally hit you that you lost someone who would’ve stayed through everything. someone who loved you quietly, sincerely, wholeheartedly, and completely. while i lost someone who was already gone long before they actually left. i’ll always wonder how someone could hold me so gently while breaking me at the same time. i miss you so much, sayang, more than i’ll ever admit out loud but i don’t want to rob your happiness with her, and i don’t want to beg for a place in someone’s heart when they’ve already chosen another person. so i’ll love you quietly from afar until i finally learn how to stop. maybe its for the better we started as strangers, and maybe that’s how we should end as well, as strangers. please dont reach out to me again ya thank you for everything 🤎