I really hope one day you realise what your lack of consideration did to me what your words meant to me whatever your intentions were with me I hope you understand what you did. I hope still that you come back I don’t know why because you hurt me so much you made me shutdown and shut out so much I used to welcome into my life. I feel like im never going to be capable of love I’ve tried so many times and told you how unlucky I was with it but you still took everything I gave you and completely wrecked it I was happier before I met you and a lot more mentally sound now it’s not the same anymore I still see you in everything even tho I’ve tried to escape it all. I really did love you Alex a lot but you broke me. I don’t see life in me anymore I just see someone who always gets hurt and taken advantage of and you was the deepest hurt I’ve felt from this even now with all this time that has passed. Please if you do come back come correct and tell me I wasn’t fighting that whole time for nothing and to actually try but if it’s not that Please leave me alone forever. I’ll always love you and miss you and hope that one day my feelings actually reached you :(